HazzleJoy

I think I’ve been avoiding this for a long time. Somehow I’ve managed to let time slip away and not focus on some of the things that make me happy. It may seem like I have my life together, but let’s be real. Whoever really does?

So much has changed in the world and obviously change is inevitable. Consider this a rambling case of the rambles. Is it normal to feel “lonely” when in reality you know you have multiple people you can talk to? I’ve been in such an introspective mood lately. Just constantly searching for more.

I just feel like I’m yearning. Yearning for something. There’s more to life than the routine.

So many things have been put into perspective. I am trying my best to do what I can, but is my “best” really good enough? I constantly put this pressure to check every single box in the order that it’s “supposed to be in.” I haven’t bet on myself in the way that I would like to.

Dreams aren’t big enough if they don’t scare you.

So what’s new?

I mean, I don’t really think that much. To be honest, I still struggle with PMDD. Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder. The good news is that I tend to cope much more swiftly now. I don’t dwell the way I used to.

Four days into 2022 and I didn’t quite expect to be feeling this way. You kind of get an image in your head when you feel like it’s all supposed to go a certain way, but then you are not going there and you’re like whoa. Hold on. I need a minute.

I’m not even going to lie. I forgot how therapeutic this was. Just to say what you gotta say and it is what it is. I think we tend to forget the purities of the simple things that we do.