It’s been a while since I wrote and it’s killing me because my mind is jumbled. When I am so scatter brained, the only way I can calm my state of mind is when I’m writing. That’s for the mental game, and of course I’ll hit u the gym to keep my sanity.
I’ve been living day to day feeling much more intuitive with my surroundings, myself, and the essence of life. Sometimes, I feel like time moves SOOOOOO fast, yet SOOOOOOO slow. It’s all a matter of perspective for sure. When you count the hours, days, weeks, months, years – yeah of course it dates it. When you just live in the literal moment of time, I feel like that is when you truly understand the great meaning of life.
Your heart never really heals after losing your Dad, but the heart does have the strength to grow to live life in love and beyond. At least, that’s how I’ve been feeling. I think about my Dad everyday and I always want to continue to make him proud.
There are so many things people may take for granted, like the silence you find comfort in when you’re sitting next to your best friend not saying a word to each other or all the mornings you have to wake up for work super early.
I try my best to not let the little things get to me because I know how bad things can go for me when somethings goes wrong. But that’s just it! Everything is all perspective and as I get older I am truly learning to accept myself honestly and wholeheartedly. Oh and by the way, I cut my hair. (;