Today, I aim to attempt and complete some assignments that have been pending. The busier I get the less sleep I seem to be getting. Every weekend, I try to catch up on sleep and today was a success with that. Felt pretty good. I’m unsure whether or not to be happy about that or not (getting less sleep), but for sure I am happy with where I am in my life. There’s still so much to do and see and I can’t help, but appreciate every detail that comes my way.
Lately, there have been tons of things going up and down with friendships and relationships. There hasn’t even been tons of time where I was able to catch up with many people because we’re all pretty much caught up in our priorities. Totally understandable. New friendships are developing and old ones are rekindling. And then there’s family. There’s always a lesson with the situations family encounter.
The journey is one crazy ride and I couldn’t be any more satisfied with the way things have been going. Slowly, things are falling into place.
Some people have forgotten certain things that matter in life and that is to not take each other for granted. It’s said often, but for some reason, no one wants to accept it. Just before things started turning around for me, I was in a complete rut. Patience truly is a virtue because everything that has come my way, I was patient for it. At the time I was told to be patient, I wasn’t ecstatic about the idea, but still, I manage to pull through EVERY SINGLE time.
The one thing I always felt was my calling, was to help others. The way that I wish to help others has somewhat been fulfilled already. Many have told me I’ve inspired them and to me, that makes my life complete. Everything else falls into place. I put God and my family as number one and in between that I learned to manage my self happiness and well-being. I learned that taking care of myself is VERY important and because I have been doing just that, I learned to be happy with myself just the way that I am.
A happy girl is a pretty girl. You can be the most beautiful person on the outside physically, but if you carry so much animosity, anger, and hate in your heart, it’ll destroy your beauty. Your insides will tear you apart and that’s the choice you have to live with, forever. UNLESS, you make the change you need to make. If not for everyone around you, make that change for yourself. You OWE it to yourself. You OWE it to God to not abuse the life you live and have. It breaks my heart to see how the world around me doesn’t quite get the truth. The truth that life really is what you make of it.
I’ve mended relationships with those I’ve had disagreements with. I’ve let go of the things that weigh me down. I stopped making assumptions about nonsense things. I learned to appreciate every single breathe I take down to the sun that hits me when I walk outside my door. I smile and give hugs often because that’s what makes me happy. Making others happy is what makes me happy.
The career I chase is ultimately because I want to help others. I want to influence others that truly anything is possible. Now a days if people ask me what my dream is, I respond telling them that I’m already living it. I’m doing things I wished for for a long time and before I was able to obtain it I worked hard, never gave up, kept pushing, praying, having faith, and learned to appreciate what I already have.
I am a testimony to the truth. The struggle. The strength. The struggle didn’t make me, it pushed me to move forward and everyday I take GREAT pride in the person I’ve become because I’ve come a LONG LONG way. Being extremely happy has made me feel like a beautiful person inside and out and it must be radiating because others tell me how beautiful I am. And that’s said in the most modest way. I take great pride in the work that I put into to help myself gain the GIFT OF LIFE.
If I can make a positive impact in just at least one person who reads this, than I’ve done my part. You may not believe me when I say this, but things do get better. There’s no where else to go, but up. Take care of yourself before anything else. Meditate, pray, follow your dreams, work hard, and NEVER give up. Regardless of the crappy situations you are put in, God knew you were strong enough to overcome them.
People come and go, death is never understood, hardships make us feel like shit, but take that situation and accept that you are strong enough to get over it and become a better person. Everyday I still work hard to be the best person I can be. Everyday I still work hard to better my relationships with those around me. I cannot and will not sit here and sulk in the ideas and thoughts that others place upon me. I am happy with my life and I am ready for the things to come to me. What others say or assume about me isn’t going to affect me. No one knows me better than myself and if you break down just because of what THEY say, you have tons of insecurities that you need to put to rest with yourself.
I hope that I have shed some sort of light for you because there’s always light at the end of the tunnel. Trust and believe the process. Live in pure love and you will receive nothing but pure love in return. The best part of my life is how I am able to obtain all that I have by being myself all the way. I never had to change a single thing because I could care less if anyone likes me or not, but if I show the world that I love myself for who I am, then I’m sure someone will love me just the same. Take control of your life and don’t let the small things ruin you and your good character.
Peace, Love, and Joy. ❤
Yours always,
Hazzle Joy
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