Dear Maliah (5)

Time and time again, I find myself wandering over here. Even though it’s completely random and spontaneous, sometimes I just have to let it out.

That saying they say, you are your biggest critic,

comes true to me. I believe that I’m the worst person at convincing myself things, but at the same time, my influence goes phenomenally untouchable. In terms of setting the mood in an entire room, sure. But in terms of convincing MYSELF in an EMPTY room, I’m my own destruction.

Every once in a while (these days shorter than before) I allow these negative thoughts to seep through because of the personal limit I put on myself. I put myself in a mental state that breaks me down rather than pull me up. It’s an everyday learning experience and the more I surround myself with such positive energy, the faster I find myself changing the negative mind set. What’s so bad is that when I’m alone I can easily get lost in my thoughts and it’s never a good place to be stuck in.

Maliah, you’re most likely rejoicing with Lola, Lolo, Tito Joe, and all the angels up there. Your sister, Mikayla, was born last week and I was so happy to be able to meet her on her very birth day. She’s so adorable. I can’t wait to watch her grow.

On a side note, I need to learn to realize that my thoughts will always be real and if I continue to stay positive and trust the journey, I will be alright. I’m so happy to be surrounded with people who care and love me and even support me unconditionally. There’s no doubt in my mind that you will be by my side every step of the way.

Love, peace, and positivity.

Who is Maliah? Click Here.

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