Wow am I overdue for a major update! Right about now, I should be squeezing in some tight studying before I get ready for work, but there are just some thoughts I need to release at this time.
So as of two days ago a new chapter has opened up in my life. Sometimes, people just have to make drastic decisions to make progressions in life. I took a step towards making myself a little bit more happy. I didn’t do anything out of spite, out of disrespect, or out of hate. I absolutely know that I will have to face my consequences and learn from the mistakes I have made or will make in the future. It is up to me to adhere to those challenges. Many people may not agree with my decision, many people may think I’ve made the best decision possible. Either way, in the end, it all comes down to myself. As much as things have been an emotional rollercoaster for me, I’ve gotten to that point where it’s just time to move on. It doesn’t mean anything about me has changed, it just means, I crave my space, my freedom, my time to learn how to grow. It’s not like I’m going off to do nothing with my life because it’s not like that at all. I’m going to finish what I started. I stand strong and firm behind my actions and beliefs. I didn’t make a decision and was completely happy about it right away because deep down it breaks my heart too yeno. My love will always be unconditional and I will never forget or turn my back. Just let me take this time for self expression and sometimes it’s for the best, whether or not you agree with it. We can’t justify our actions to being the exact “right” thing, but it’s going to have to do for now. I could care less what people’s opinions are going to be about me, only God’s judgement matters to me now.
I would consider myself an extrovert towards certain people, close people of course. And to those who have stood there for me hearing me vent and hear what I have to say, I want to thank you. Approaching you should mean a lot to you because it means that I trust you. I really appreciate those who are true to me for being there for me through it all. Thank you for criticizing my actions as well as supporting them. Thank you for your presence. Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for your loyalty. You know who you are.
HazzleJoy 